This or That
"To thine own self be true!"-Shakespeare
Sometimes I have a “this” or “that” moment. It seems like I can’t reach that happy medium in my life. I feel stuck between "will my dreams ever be more than just a dream?" and "How dare you dream such a Big dream!" Do you ever feel that way?
I liken these feelings to the beauty of finding the perfect Rachel Roy dress at Macy's within my budget, but the dissatisfaction of not locating the complimentary pair of Vince Camuto shoes to accent the outfit. It's a constant dance between completion and incompletion; comfortability and insecurity; faith and fear, love and lost. Recently I ventured out in public in a dress that stopped slightly above my knees and yet it was a hit to all who saw it. Now that may not mean much to you, but for me it was a WIN. I wore what I wanted and I didn't allow my fear of acceptance to prevent me from doing so. I did what felt was right. At the end of the day, thats what really matters. Shakespeare told us centuries ago to grapple with the truth. To take ownership of YOUR truth. He reminded us through the play Hamlet that your voice is really the only voice that makes you uniquely You! Therefore, be honestly and incomparably You. Whew! Thats a word from God to me.
Recently, I experienced the adrenaline and excitement of being on camera for an interview and then the disappointment of being cut from the final video. My dreams of being a media maven and influencer flashed in front of my eyes when I reflected on that painful moment. I realized I was again ignored from by the people who I esteemed as valuable and important. That made me sad.
Today, I’m reminded as Paul said in Philippians 3:14 “to press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling in Christ Jesus.” I dare say today that sometimes I don’t feel like pressing. But God is the prize and I can’t allow my insecurities, fears and other people’s opinions of me, to stop me. (Insert a virtual high five!) I am not forgettable and neither are you. In God's timing, I WILL make the mark that God intends for me in this world. And so will you! Until then, let's continue honing our gifts and practicing what we preach.
If and when you get to feeling like you're stuck between dreaming and manifesting your dreams, remember that YOU are a gift. God created you with so much inside of you that you will always have more guts, strength, faith, energy and vision to Press! Press on! Let's press forward. Let's dream again like Joseph and let's stop this balancing act. Be true to yourself. (Yes, I'm writing this to me as well.) Let's reset our focus and go for it! Honestly, we must go harder if we want to reach our full potential and fully live out our purpose. Honestly, it was never a question of this or that, but a statement of clarity concerning when. Very soon We will receive everything that God has for us. Isn't that Good News?
With gratitude,
Preacher Girl Swag